So, for scary real life type reasons, this journal is now friends only.

Please comment if you want to be friended.

Sorry.

because if the drive corrupts or whatever it is that makes it completely dead, all of your music (about 50 gig) is gone.

*cries*

MST3K is funny. Billy and I just watched 'Manos:The Hands of Fate'. I was laughing so much I had to put down my drink because every time I tried to drink some I ended up laughing and spitting it out by accident.

Hah.

We are in Disneyworld right now. It is good. Except that if we're out in the park during midday time I get too hot and grouchy.

I think we're going to the mall today.

( I have a list of concerns about being here, though: )

P.S. As an outsider, the adverts for the presidential candidates both seem like a playground fight: 'Obama smells!' 'No, McCain smells!' 'Well, Obama's a stupidhead!'

my fic just keeps growing with no end in sight. It's at 4,500 words and i just keep feeling like i need more scenes, more exposition, more action, more romance, more character development.

Help me!

P.S. Why am i knitting lace with cotton. Am i completely insane?

P.P.S. Why didn't I start washing things for Florida sooner. It will never be finished.

( Today Billy and I went to iKnit. Well, I went and Billy came to protect me because I am the type of person who trips up on the pavement and is yelled at for no reason by strangers on the tube. )

Also, hi. How is everyone? I have a week off now so I plan to read and knit and write fic (I have over 3,000 words of Harlequin written!) and maybe cook and clean and make sure we have clean clothes for our big Florida Vacation if I can be bothered.

P.S. Spore is kinda awesome.

P.P.S. I forgot to mention that I bumped into birdsflying and saw jamjar from a distance at iKnit. That was good :)

There's a story my mum likes to tell about how I pretended to have astha to get out of a test in primary school and how she told my teacher not to be ridiculous and that I didn't have asthma. I've never corrected her but what she doesn't know is that I wasn't faking. I remember my chest getting tight and it feeling like I couldn't breathe. What I didn't know was that the feeling was anxiety - that I was so worried about not passing the test that my body stopped working properly.

My regional manager is due in on Thursday and I have a huge list of things that have to be done today because I'm not at work tomorrow and I can't seem to get away from the customers.

My chest hurts.

Lately all I seem to post is misery and I promise I don't feel that way all the time. There's just a lot going on right now.

P.S. This has killed my phone battery. Sorry, Billy.

I feel like making a video post but i'm too shy. Every time I think about turning the camera on, my mind goes blank. I'm much more eloquent in my head than I am in real life. Which sucks.

My Grandad died a week ago today. Thanks to everyone who sent me kind thoughts and wishes.

I'm okay. A little sad but okay. My Grandad had a good long life. He always told the best stories about the things he'd seen and done. He lived to meet his great-grandkids (my cousin's daughters) and saw Bill and I get married. He and my Grandma were married 65 years and still made each other happy (most of the time). He died in his sleep, feeling no pain, surrounded by family who loved him.

I hope I get to be as lucky.

Sorry, I didn't mean to be maudlin and make my friends depressed. Let's talk about other things.

I read three trashy romance novels today. One had succubi. Which was pretty good. I'm also writing a trashy romance story. 3,358 words and counting. Now i just need to actually finish it.

I was going to post to the love meme, but I'm pretty sure no-one knows who I am because I hardly ever post and almost never comment any more. I don't know, I read, I just don't do anything about it.

I'm off work this Sunday and I'm planning to spend it writing and watch 'North and South' because I missed it when it was on TV. I read the book back when I was in school and was by turns bored and enthralled (there was a lot of political manifesto mixed in with the love story, which didn't really interest me) but my Mum said it was worth watching if just for the attractive man, so...

Then, next weekend, I have tickets to iKnit. \o/

My Grandad had a massive stroke in his sleep last night. The doctors say they can't do anything but make him comfortable and wait for the inevitable. He's had a good long life and he isn't in any pain but it's still very sad for those of us who love him.

My dad died two years ago this saturday coming.

I hate August. I wish it would just fuck off and die.

I am consoling myself with georgette heyer novels and wii fit yoga and hula hoops. They don't seem to be working especially well. Any guesses whether 'The Last Unicorn' will make me cry - I've never seen it before.

...is one of the worst books I have ever attempted to read. I don't think I made it past the first chapter. It reads like it was written by a 13 year-old. Actually, it reads like some of the terrible fanfic I wrote when I was a 13 year-old. Blah.

( Click here for an example of the badness )

What a waste of money. :(

I'm feeling particularly crazy today. What do you do when something is upsetting you and you can't do anything about it?

i just spent hours working on the gusset of a sock only to realise now that it's done that i've been doing it wrong and therefore need to undo all my work.

why didn't i double check the pattern at some point before now?

*cries*

Today is my birthday.

That is all.

I have 2 panic at the disco tickets \o/

There is only 1 of me and Billy doesn't think he can make it (probably) but I don't want to go by myself. If my friend Kelly can't make it, does anyone want to come with me? London on the 10th March.

Having a very shitty day, which i don't want to talk about. Instead, here's some silly Panic! at the disco Ice Skating AU. Please be aware that the last time i wrote ANYTHING was almost two years ago, so my writing is a little rusty.

( Sparkles, Spencer Smith! )

...since we're moving on Wednesday and our internet should have stopped last week some time, i thought i'd take advantage of it still being here to let people know what's going on. Also, i don't know how long it will be before we get our new broadband sorted out.

I got Billy the Orange Box yesterday and he is now busy playing Portal.

I got lots of comics (graphic novels) for myself :) She-hulk 1 (because of Erica!), the second part of X-23, Fables 2 (which i already have and need to take back and exchange for Fables 3), Astonishing X-men 3 and the first trade of Buffy Season 8.

We're looking forward to moving and yet we are so not ready that it's practically funny. Also we are lazy and want to spend time with our games and comics instead of tidying and cleaning and chucking stuff out and packing.

I hope you guys are all okay.